From the Mind of: Tonya D. Floyd

So anyway, I was thinking it's time to do something new.  Old stuff keeps creeping into my mind when I'm off guard--mostly when I sleep.  It would appear I have unresolved issues somewhere.  I try to offset them though.  I've learned that evil can't occupy my mind when there's so much to look forward to, but the tricky part is when you find yourself in a holding pattern and you have no way of changing the outcome yourself.  Perhaps that's my control issues resurfacing, but no amount of frustration or maneuvering I can come up with will change my current wait.  So I need to replace that space I keep my frustrations in with something else.  But what?  I'm trying to stop spending money, but when I feel like this, buying stuff feels so good.  I've already been eating better; lost 20 useless pounds since December.  I watch Food Network, diY and HGTV to get new ideas.  I visit the babies when I need a pick-me-up.  We go to the library and get the suggested readings.  I read informative materials to add to my "useless knowledge" people always call me asking for.  I stay away from depressing news stuff.  I mean, I already had a regimen that included self-improvement, spiritual food, and parenting, so what's left?  I don't know, but I do know I'm not ready to be back in general population yet.  Trust that it's for my protection and yours; I'm just not ready.  Consider this the butterfly stage; I'm upgrading to a better version.  Stay tuned....

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